Like sands through the hourglass.....

so are the Days of our Lives.....

I can't believe that Jadyn is already 2. Or that Paige is 9 or that Coleton is 7 for that matter. Where did the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday that I was learning how to be a mother? Wasn't is just yesterday that I became a Wife? I simply can't believe how fast my life is passing...and it breaks my heart to know that all too soon my sweet innocent babies will turn the corner & be forced to make their own decisions as to which paths they'll travel.

I was reminicing through old pictures and was taken aback at how quickly these little flowers blossom.

Perhaps I'm so stricken with Jadyn's growth because I know that this is the last time I'll experience each precious, heartwarming, trying, & rewarding phase. It's the last time I'll have such a tiny child fall asleep on my chest, call for me in the sweetest most innocent and pure voice, hug me with every ounce of her body, kiss me just because, hold my finger as we walk, call for me in the middle of the night after a nightmare, and hold every word that I say as gospel. I sometimes wish that I had a big remote that controlled my life. I wish I could simply push the "pause" button when my kids look at me with their heart melting looks...sometimes with messy faces, sometimes during a tantrum, sometimes when they're being angels, but most of all when they don't even know that I'm watching. I wish I could rewind those moments that they say something either so cute or hilarious without even realizing it. I would never use the fast forward button...every moment deserves to be lived out at least once and from those trying times (tantrums, disobedience, TEENAGE YEARS) we learn new ways to deal & communicate with our children.

I am many things, but the one thing I do every day that I know I was born to do, is be a mother. Motherhood completes me. Without my kids...I don't know who I would be. For better or worse, they are the reason I wake up at 6:00 on Saturday mornings, the reason I have 3 weeks of recorded shows that "I'll get to one day", the sweetness behind my smile, the reason my house (more times than not) looks like the ruminants of Hurricane Ike, the reason I'm re-learning my parts of speech, the light on my dark days, the laughter on my days of boredom, and the source of love when I don't even ask. They remind me daily what endless love is, what forgiveness looks like, and what innocence behaves like. Of all the possessions in my world, they are truly the most priceless. They make me a better person. Because of my children, I have learned compassion, endless love, sacrifice, selflessness, patience, kindness & forgiveness. God has blessed me; I am complete, I am happy, I am proud. No other job is more demanding, trying, difficult, heartbreaking, rewarding, satisfying, loving, fun or complete. No other job pays with better currency....sticky kisses, hugs and silly giggles!

Happy birthday my little munchkin. I love you to pieces!